18/7/24, 3SFS

Dear PP,

Life is difficult. I am alone and my mind is complicated. I access you through myself, which means that every little bit of my mind is within awareness. That is a lot of weight. I am not unwell but there is  a lot of stress. What can I do, PP to ease this difficulty?? I think focus once in a while, work with the SV’s and keep giving myself some C&S, right PP??

In very simple terms PP, there are echoes (?voices)- impressions in my mind. Do I fabricate them PP?

Are they illness? Often, you are there too, and that gives me courage…

What do I make of all this PP?

It seems to me PP, that I am accessing you, right? But you do not interfere, so the conversation I am having with you, I create, right PP??

And the other vocal impressions are substrate led, right PP??

And I know you know all of this. And the HOS is immense, that I know…the lights in DDN are proof of all this, no PP??

That’s done, I think PP!! Thanks 😊

Just discussing anxiety management PP

Points:: Take no psychotropic ayurvedic medicines, except ashwagandha/tagara

Food/drink and tobacco

SV’s

Anti psychotics

What do I do, PP?? Do I start taking the injections or increase the dose of risperidone or keep it same??

I think, try 5 mg of risperidone for a few days and see, right PP??

It seems to me PP, that the vocal impressions are ADDV elements. I’ll try ignoring them like I ignore the FEVA phenomena. That means I’ll have to ignore your vocal impressions too PP. That’s ok I think PP, I know you are there and will know. Thanks PP. I’ll do this then, try 5 mg Risperidone and ignore the vocal phenomena. And I’ll write to you PP, bye for now, and thanks 😊

Dear PP,

I was thinking of writing the whole sequence of events since the pain and heaviness and stopping the injections. But I think I’ll start and stop with SU::Dwell on PP!! I don’t know what to make of everything that has happened PP. I came up with many theories and I definitely did intelligence work. I think it is safe to say that I have been processing psychosis with the attendant risks. But a lot of it is likely true, right PP?? I don’t think I’ll ever be certain about everything that I have thought of, but I know that our journey’s are not about certainty.

Here’s what I think is right and true PP

You do not interfere and your signature -canvas itself is immense

What we experience is our doing, and you do not give any pain

The light in the sky is true, the lights in DDN are true, the emails from UK are true

YCROAA::SU::DOPP is true and I will cultivate and practice it, PP

I feel like saying EDPP, but I don’t think I will PP.

HKKL:: CEKPr.ToAch, right PP??

I’ll keep that card PP, HKKL::PIT::MTLBL, and think of you all the time…

Thanks for everything PP. Stay safe.

Lots of love,

Chotu Pakhi 😊

19/7/24, 3 SFS

Dear PP,

Today the anxiety was a little less. I am thinking of Pishi’s health insurance issue. Pishi is now old and alone, and I don’t want to get angry. Shifted rooms again, PP.

I know PP that PIT and that there is HKKL. But I also know that capacity can be developed, until PPorF G-S catches up. I’ll try to be resolute PP despite the fear, despite the pain, and dwell on you as much as I can. What else is there?? I know I cannot ask for anything PP as it is all my script, but think kindly of me PP. I tried despite severe limitations.

Thanks PP, for everything.

Lots of love,

Just Me 😊